So it’s been two weeks, and I want you all
to know that I’m really healing and doing emotionally so much better than I
could have anticipated two weeks ago. Thank you for all your encouragements and
prayers! They have meant the world to me.
I’m am also overwhelmed by all the
positive feedback I got from the blog. I feel it really accomplished my two
purposes: to get all my torment out of my head and in words (if not on paper)
and to help you understand what it’s really like. I am AMAZED so many of you even
read it to the end. And I am sorry if it made you cry.
As for crying, I am not breaking down in
the shower on a daily basis. And once I published the blog, I started sleeping
normally, even better than before, and that makes a huge difference in how my brain
functions. I’d say my emotions are in check, so long as no one starts hugging
me and telling me again how sorry they are for what we’re going through. But
those occurrences are dwindling off. And despite my fear that I’d keep looking
pregnant, my body is snapping back into non-pregnant shape. I haven’t lost the
weight yet (that eating ice cream every night thing is a hard habit to kick) but the baby bump is
gone. I look normally overweight, in the way that you wouldn’t dare risk asking
a stranger “when are you due?” without fear of getting punched.
Soooooo….let’s talk about something else.
What’s going on with you? It was great to hear from so many friends, but all
you told me is how sorry you are for me. Now tell me something good, or not so
good, about what’s going on with you! I’ve played my hand, my cards are on the
table. What are you holding? Email me!
In the past week I read “Go Set a
Watchman,” the “new” Harper Lee book. Very interesting, not so much the book
itself but for the comparison of Watchman and “To Kill a Mockingbird.” And then I
listened to the Diane Rehm Show’s book discussion, and while the discussion
wasn’t as good as I had hoped it would be, it was fun to think critically about
the book and about what these professionals had to think about it. So if you have
also read this book, let’s talk about it!
I’ve also been watching a lot of sad
movies. Not overly sad, but more like dark humor sad, about people whose lives
suck but they don’t really realize it. And it’s not like I’m really seeking
that out—that’s just what movies are about these days. Though several of these
movies did star Kristen Wiig, and she does seem to pick roles about women who
are kind of losers. These movies include “Girl Most Likely,” “Welcome to Me,”
and “The Skeleton Twins.” Have you seen any of these movies? Let’s talk about
it!
I’ve also been on a shopping kick. I know
I can be an impulse shopper, but Josh and I started a Budget (yes, it deserves
to be capitalized) last year, and since then I’ve really reigned in my
shopping. But in the past week, I bought my first pair of Toms, a pair of
Babiator sunglasses for Rye (which we had seen on vacation last month but had
decided not to buy because it seemed like they were vacation-store priced
rather than reasonably priced, but it turns out, it was the same price online),
a year’s worth of deodorant from Amazon because I get so frustrated when I
can’t find my brand in stores, and a couple of presents for others. Do you also
like to impulse buy? Let’s talk about it!
So I hope you get my point. Life goes on.
We all know what happened, but the future lies ahead. And I’m going to have
cute shoes for it.
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